OK, so I was lazy the entire of month of February and had to copy those posts from the other site. LOL Oh well, I can be lazy when I want to be!

SO is gone now for 3 nights, until sometime Sunday. Annual work thing; he's actually local, but stays in a hotel. Station event. I'm feeling a little relieved at not having to do with him for a few days. But, yeah, the thought is in the back of my mind if OW is there. I wouldn't doubt it.

His mom is coming for the weekend, which I mentioned to him. Gave him the heads up that I will be kid-free, although not sure what my plans will be. Once upon a time, I used to go to this event with him....well, at least pop in throughout and then go there on Saturday night when it ended and everyone went out afterward. I wasn't fishing for him to ask me to come out there, more that he's insistant on knowing things in advance. Nor did I want him to think this was something I had planned. It wasn't. His mother called me this morning, I had nothing to do with it.

I've decided to really take some time and think about what to do next. I mean REALLY REALLY THINK ABOUT IT. In one of my earlier posts, I seem so wishy-washy.

In some ways, we've become stagnant. There was a time when pursuit worked with him. Maybe it's time to go back to that.

As for moving out, I think I'm inclined to stay a bit longer. It's March, school's out in June. I think I can do this for 3 1/2 months longer. I just need to set some goals, again. Read my arsenal of books, again. Focus. I've fallen off the path. Time to get back on it. Come June, I can relocate if I feel nothing significant has changed.

Oh, from last night. SO called and asked if D8 could sleep with him (we've always done this as a treat to her)...I said OK. Then, around 11:30, he comes to MY room with his pillow. Saying he can't sleep. So, he slept with me last night. Shrug. Just an interesting observation. I thought for sure with D8 in there, his abandonment fear would be quelled for the night. Guess I was wrong.