Now, for the psychobabble...

Let's rip this apart.

I'm pissed. I'm suspicious. Angry, hurt, frustrated.

Suspicious that OW is there. That explains the rejection of my offer to stay with him last night. That leads to me being hurt...then leads to my frustration and not feeling like I'm able to "DO" something constructive in our R.

So, a typical response / reaction from me is to act a little miffed. And to soometimes let my anger show through. This time, I think I handled it in a blase type manner. I fully EXPECTED him to reject me last night. Knew that when I sent the text, so it didn't really surprise me that he said no. But, somehow I have to learn that while I didn't expect a yes, I have to learn how to shrug off my disappointment. How do I do THAT?

And again today, with his text. I'm pissed that it's almost 2 pm and it really doesn't look like he's coming here. Especially after his closing words on the phone last night were "If I didn't have to do the promo, I'd come home tonight" (And yes, I thought to myself all BS. If you REALLY menat what you just said, you would go do the promo, then come home. It was only 10:15 and it would only take 1/2 hour to do. But I said nothing.)

Another thing - normally I would have just texted him back after todays text. Instead I tried to CALL. But, if OW is there, of course he won't answer. But it was my attempt to break the cycle.

Roadblock.